my goal for the summer is to make friends.
with a little courage i think thats not too big of a goal.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
Q and Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...
Yesterday I was asked if I was excited about the school year coming to an end.
Now, this question would automatically bother me because 1. I hate small talk, because if its small talk than that basically means that i don't really know the person, which makes me nervous, and 2. I am incapable of answering a question without expounding (especially if the answer is atypical- see my first post ever.) But the reason I am bothered by this specific question that I have been bombarded with for the past couple weeks, is that the end of the 2008-2009 school year terrifies me.
Not only does it mean that I will be a senior, having to endure the requisite stress para to get into college, but more importantly, I will be a senior with no friends.
Unfortunately for my morale, my lack of Class of 2010 friends has nothing to do with an inability to make friends. No, I brought this upon myself when i convinced myself that the majority of people in my grade are uninteresting teenz. Oho, because I am so intriguing myself. Nevertheless it is an opinion that I still hold today despite my presentiment that I will be friendless come next fall.
As of today, I have four actual friends in my grade that I will carry throughout next year: Kerry, Tim, Sarah, and Tess. And then there is a kind of potpourri of people who I can call friends but I never really talk to out of school unless at a large gathering. At prom i hugged so many people, but the majority of them I havent seen outside of school.
Anyways, my main problem is that my niche right now is the artsy group. But I dont have an artsy group in my grade. Tim and I will just be the trendy remains in the coming school year.
to be continued
Now, this question would automatically bother me because 1. I hate small talk, because if its small talk than that basically means that i don't really know the person, which makes me nervous, and 2. I am incapable of answering a question without expounding (especially if the answer is atypical- see my first post ever.) But the reason I am bothered by this specific question that I have been bombarded with for the past couple weeks, is that the end of the 2008-2009 school year terrifies me.
Not only does it mean that I will be a senior, having to endure the requisite stress para to get into college, but more importantly, I will be a senior with no friends.
Unfortunately for my morale, my lack of Class of 2010 friends has nothing to do with an inability to make friends. No, I brought this upon myself when i convinced myself that the majority of people in my grade are uninteresting teenz. Oho, because I am so intriguing myself. Nevertheless it is an opinion that I still hold today despite my presentiment that I will be friendless come next fall.
As of today, I have four actual friends in my grade that I will carry throughout next year: Kerry, Tim, Sarah, and Tess. And then there is a kind of potpourri of people who I can call friends but I never really talk to out of school unless at a large gathering. At prom i hugged so many people, but the majority of them I havent seen outside of school.
Anyways, my main problem is that my niche right now is the artsy group. But I dont have an artsy group in my grade. Tim and I will just be the trendy remains in the coming school year.
to be continued
Saturday, May 9, 2009
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