facts

my teeth hurt

i am fond of intertwining appendages and sleeping for an obscene amount of time

i seem to have gotten myself into the habit of staying up until four

i am attracted to cate blanchett in i'm not there

i justify that by telling myself that my boyfriend is attracted to men who look like girls

i want to cut my hair short

i find it difficult not to act like the people in the movie I just watched.
i noticed it first about a year ago when i caught myself speaking like audrey hepburn after watching breakfast at tiffanys.

now i want to act like edie sedgwick after watching factory girl.
and of course andy, but i always want to act like him, so it didn't really change anything.
once in an interview andy said "oh gee thanks" and ive adopted it ever since i read it.
theres something about his character thats just so appealing to me.
it seems hes so indifferent to everything when he speaks.
once when asked to define himself andy said that he doesn't have his own personality, but he takes bits and pieces from everyone around him.
i think about that a lot.

i'm usually very wide eyed and quiet and timid say, in art or lunch or with a group of people.
but in english i can shout and make everyone laugh without shrinking away before i speak.
i feel like i have contradicting personalities.
i love being both.
but i feel very boring when i'm shy, and its strange, because i feel like i have more personality around my "school" friends in english than around my real life friends.



i got off topic.

hello my name is erin and i'm too afraid to do anything.

something new!

I remember over the summer reading this guy's blog about all the stupid things he and his girlfriend get into actual arguments about. It made me sad because it reminded me of Ryan, but I suppose now that we are back together I should just make my own list. so.

AN ONGOING LIST OF THINGS RYAN AND I HAVE SERIOUSLY FOUGHT ABOUT:

1. How many waffles Ryan ate for breakfast.
2. Whether or not dippin' dots should really be called the "ice cream of the future." (this is ongoing)
3. Whether or not I should have thought that thing I just thought.
4. Whether or not anyone in their right mind would have ever thought that thing I just thought.
ex. "No one ever would think that"
"Thats not true! Yes they would!"
"No, thats not an opinion, Erin. No one in their right mind would have ever though that."
5. Whether or not it sucks that we have to go to school monday and tuesday before christmas vacation.
6. Me leaving his house to eat icecream cake, even though everyone was watching I Am Legend.
7. Ryan not being understanding enough when i got stuck in an $120 shirt at J.Crew for an hour.
8. Whether I was really going to leave in Adria's car that time at the gas station even though it was a joke.
9. Whether or not I would like American History X.
10. Whether or not I would think that David Duchovny would look hot if I saw him walking down the street and I didn't know who he was.

so i dont forget

i listen to this playlist at least once a day.

men - the dodos
the minotaur- the drones
hybrid moments - the misfits
queen bitch - david bowie
ulysses - franz ferdinand
jackson - johnny cash and june carter
arms - seabear
prelude no. 7 in E flat- the swingle singers
la valse de monstres - yann tiersen
your country - gogol bordello

We are in love
We are at war
I feed myself
You feed the poor
I write the fiction
You write the lore
These are addictions
That seem to form