i find it difficult not to act like the people in the movie I just watched.
i noticed it first about a year ago when i caught myself speaking like audrey hepburn after watching breakfast at tiffanys.

now i want to act like edie sedgwick after watching factory girl.
and of course andy, but i always want to act like him, so it didn't really change anything.
once in an interview andy said "oh gee thanks" and ive adopted it ever since i read it.
theres something about his character thats just so appealing to me.
it seems hes so indifferent to everything when he speaks.
once when asked to define himself andy said that he doesn't have his own personality, but he takes bits and pieces from everyone around him.
i think about that a lot.

i'm usually very wide eyed and quiet and timid say, in art or lunch or with a group of people.
but in english i can shout and make everyone laugh without shrinking away before i speak.
i feel like i have contradicting personalities.
i love being both.
but i feel very boring when i'm shy, and its strange, because i feel like i have more personality around my "school" friends in english than around my real life friends.



i got off topic.