q: what have you done this summer?

Normally when I ask someone that question (obviously because I cant think of anything else,) I get some fun answer that has to do with hanging out with friends, going to the beach, partying, the usual. And whatever. I dont care what you've been doing this summer, its not important to me. But the problem with my question is that its one of those "how are you?"esque questions that gets thrown right back at you. This is a problem for me, because I like to be honest. And my honest answer is, "nothing....at all." Which is kind of a conversation killer in my opinion. But I mean...what else should I say? My dad suggested saying that I've been really busy working. But that provokes another question. To which my answer is, "cassidy field." And I'm always given a weird look until I say, "uhh..theres a concession stand." And then, "uhh..its near choate park." And then, "but baseball season ended like a month ago." And then, "Yeah, so i'm not working now." So I really have to do something before school starts because once I step into that building I'm going to be bombarded with potential conversation killing questions. Also I'm going to look really lame.

I just cant seem to do anything. Its not that I'm isolating myself from everyone, because I dont really have many people to isolate myself from. Its not that I dont call and try to make plans, its just that everyone wants to know, "well what do you want to do?" and jeez! I dont know. what do you want to do?

I feel like maybe when school starts, people will start calling me again. Maybe everyone forgot about me and they just have to be reminded that I exist by walking past me running to my next class or kicking my locker or dropping something. Probably a combination of all three. I'm really getting no where with this.

I just want to fast forward my life two years so that i'll be going to college and I can actually meet new people who can become actual friends, not just pretend friends.